"Asa chidyan da chamba ve baabul asa udh jaana
saadhi lambi udai ve waapas asa nahi aana......"

Song which touches my heart.... Marriage this word changes the life of a gal....as like any other girl I’m quite happy with my engagement but at the same time my heart full of so many questions…. Which are till now unanswerable ….may be answered by time…

Marriage, mixed feeling of happiness & sadness. Happiness to get some one who is just for me and sadness to leave my near ones to dear ones with whom I’ve spent my half of life…..feeling the step which I’m taking towards him, by the same number of steps I’m going away from my family….. seems mere haathon se sab chhote jaa raha hai..…. My home, my family everyone is going far from me…. Its true I’ll get new home…new family members but what about them with whom till now I was living….. kyu hum us ghar mein mehmaan bankar reh jaate hain jahan humne bolna seekha, chalna seekha aur jahan humne apna bachpan gujara hai…..kyu who ghar apna nahi rehta…..

My Mom who was there to hold me at every point of life will not be there anymore…..I’ve to take care of everything on my own…..i know he will always be there for me but still I’m feeling the place will be vacated which will not be filled by anyone….

I’ve started loving him lot and eager to start my life with him…. But still something is missing…still some fears are there…. I know I’ve to go but I still don’t wanna go…. Lagta hai mummy abhi aawaz lagayengi aur kahengi ki beta tujhe kahin nahi jaana… tu yahi rahegi mere paas humesha ke liye… kyu who aisa nahi bolti…. kyu mujhe koi nahi rok raha…..Kyu mujhe jaana padega?? Mera sab apne mere jaane se khush kaise ho sakte hain…. Jis ghar ka main aaj tak hissa thi kuch time baad who mera nahi rahega…..Y I’ve grown up…. Y can’t I be kid again……I really don’t feel like going…..aisa lagata hai mere andar kuch toofaan chal raha hai jo pata nahi kab thamega…..

Everyone is happy infact im also very happy to have a life partner like him but still im not happy…. I know im giving quite contradictory statements but seriously not able to understand whats going in my mind….. kehte hain kisi ko mukamal jahan nahi milta kisi ko zameen kisi ko aasmaan nahi milta…. May this is specially written for girls only……. Getting something but also loosing something…… and then this song comes in my mind "Asa chidyan da chamba ve baabul asa udh jaana.......Saadhi lambi udai ve waapas asa nahi aana......"